我想你真的很讨厌我了。。

你真的很想很讨厌我了啊？？

为什么你都不call 我醒来了的？？

为什么你都不remind 我了的？？

为什么你都没有回我MSN 的？？

我真的有很多为什么。。　

可是都不敢去问你　连发个短讯给你我都不敢。。　

就只好一个人静静地痛吧。。　

距离

发现我们现在离对方越来越远了。。

我已经不懂你在想什么，也不敢去问你了。。

我想你也应该不懂我在做什么。

我开不开心你也不懂了也不用去理会了。。

我在你的心里面已经不是你心爱的BB 了。。

可是你还是我最爱的BB 。。

只要你开心，你要我做什么都可以。。

我不会再去打扰你，因为我怕你不开心。。

就让我一个人慢慢的离开罢。。

时间是可以把事情淡化，也可以把我对你的心给消灭。。

Miss you..

I still very d missing you..

wondering what you doing over there..

wondering are you happy recently that i nv contact you at all..

wondering you know im keep on changing or not..

wondering you still angry me or not..

so many wondering..

Warm...

Thank you for bringing me to watch movie 2012, and i really appreciate that you allowed me lying on your arm.. during lying on your arm i felt much much warm and just want to sleep on you arm..

but i dunwan to waste your money so that i choose finish the movie..

I love you, i love your perfume, and i love your big arm...

Watch movie today..

Today im going to watch movie with him.. 2012..

Im so nervous, i dunnoe what he think of me..

Everything is not under my control anymore..

I'm a murderer, I kills my husband and now what can i do is atonement..

I'm so sorry...

没有你。。

没有你在身边的日子都很难过。。

不懂你还会不会回来。。

我都很想和你在一起。。

我爱你。。

Think 100 times

Today I'm a little bit funny..

I do comfort other ppl do not gv up his relationship..

His situation also almost the same problem with me, my friend was another "BIG MAN" and his boyfriend was keep nagging him to accompany more.. but my friend "BIG MAN" wasn't really like it, because he "BIG MAN" felt that his boyfriend occupied all his own times..

My friend which is the "BIG MAN" told me his story, and i keep ask him think 100 times.. don't simply simply make decision and DO NOT FOLLOW MY PATH.

This is proof that I'm not the previous Wilson YK anymore because I doesn't tell him follow his feeling, old Wilson YK alwis follow his own feeling, whatever feeling his feeling he will expressed out without knowing other ppl feeling..

BB Im really changing.. Give me chance.. I will really proof it.. I LOVE YOU..

Crys..

I keep non stop crying, cry every time..

I cry because i hate myself being so stupid that give up you again..

I wish you can come back to me BB.. I really Love you.. I really will change to the person u like..

Just give me 1 last chance please..

很想你。。

我真的很想你。。

很想你，想你吻我，想你抱我，想你握住我的手， 想和你一起吃晚餐， 想陪你睡觉，想和你牵牵手，想和你去公园散散步。

现在只可以想罢了。。

你不知道。。

其实你不知道，每次你发火过后我自己转过身却不断地哭。。

其实你不知道我不会真正的去生气你，因为我是真的喜欢你在乎你。。

其实你不知道我只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。。

其实你不知道我有多么的爱你，我爱你多过爱我自己。。

其实你不知道每次你不舒服，我比你跟不舒服。。

其实你不知道我很想你，每一分每一秒我都在想你。。

其实你不知道你对我是多么的重要，我把你都放在我的第一位。。

其实你不知道我们的分手，我是多么的心痛。。

其实你不知道我真的在改变我自己，就是要和你开开心心的在一起。。

其实你不知道我没有后悔和你分手，我要用这个机会来改变我。。

其实你不知道我可以为你做任何一样东西，因为我是真的在乎你。。

其实你不知道，我有多恐惧你不会回来我身边。。

其实你不知道我真的知错了。。

You still here..

Thank you for your comfort.. I didn't regret that broken up with you, its make me want to be a better person..

But i still the words, I alwis love you no matter what happen..

I LOVE YOU....

How are you..

I know you wont see this blog d, because i rarely show this to any1 else..

But i wish that you can see my blog.. at least you know what my feeling about..

just wanna know how are you lately are you happy?? or you still sad?? or you dont want to see me?? and really wanna know how your sick??

i cant hide myself that i really really miss you..

i will wait and wait.. because you're my everything, i realized that I really cant live without you.. without you my life is terrible..

BB Im so so sorry, i will use time to improve myself.. I love you and I miss you...

倒霉。。

我真的很倒霉。。 心情几经不好了。。还给我将多不如意的事情。。

我的衣柜吊衣服的棍断了。。 衣服全部跌完出来。。 现在才后悔为什么买将多衣服。。

晕。。

男人

现在的我每天都会来这里写写东西。。 把这里当成是我想讲的话和我的感觉全部写下来 至少我会好过一些。。

过了前两天的company dinner， 我听到很多很多的故事和学到很多东西，学到为什么男人将紧张他们的事业，原来他们将努力地去赚钱是应为他们想给他心爱的人过得好一点，他们也想过些好过的日子和不想一直依靠别人，他们想靠他们自己的手创造他们自己的公事。。

作为他们背后的人一定要给他支持，比如说每天他回到家帮他减轻以下压力，煮些东西给他吃，他累了就叫他洗个澡然后帮他盖被睡觉，然后自己就帮他做些他没留意到的小小事情，比如烫衣服，洗衣，收拾明天他要用到的东西。 给他一个温柔和没有压力的感觉。。

如果他晚上还要做工的时候就不要打扰他，如果他还没有吃就帮他准备一些小吃。。不要一直问他几时睡，应为他自己也不懂要做到几点，也不要特地等他不然的话他会一直在想到有人在等他就做不到工。。

可是我自前就没有做到这些东西，每次都发他脾气，他没有空陪我我就生气他 就没有真真的给他支持也没有为他做任何一样东西。。

我真的知道错了，可是事实就是事实 现在的他已经放弃了我。。 我也不懂之后要如何支持他。。

如果你可以给我一次机会我一定会支持你，做个你背后支持你的小男人。。

Smile..

Hard to make myself smile ler...

Im down, and desperate.. cant even have a good sleep..

I really like a zombie.. hope some1 can shot me until die just like L4D2..

想死。。

我很想死。。

我真的不想再想了。。 很痛 很伤心。。

我不懂我可以顶到几时。。

反正都要痛，好不如一次给他痛到够够力。。

然后什么东西都不用想。。

如果我真的顶不住了，这里是我要和我Daddy Mummy 要讲的话。。

我真的要和我的Daddy Mummy讲 对不起， 你们把我带到来这个世界 可是我就将的放弃了。。

每次都弄到你们不开心真的很对不起， 也很对不起来不及报答你们。。但是我很谢谢你们 将久以来的照顾， 你们没有抱怨你们有个喜欢同性的儿子， 你们也很辛苦的把我养大和供我读书 我真的很谢谢你们。。 I love both of my parent, but your son no longer able to return anything to both of you... Im so Sorry..

受伤了。。

我的脚受伤了。。 刚才去买药给他的时候不小心滑倒脚跌进long kang 搽伤了..

流了一点血 黑青了一点，有点痛哦 现在过将久了还痛下痛下, 就算我将痛都没有他的心将痛。。

Headache...

I was insomnia for few nights.. and only slept for less than 20hours since Monday until Today...

I really blur wanted to sleep but whenever i close my eye my brain is appearing everything about him.. Im feel like im a zombie now instead of a human..

Sorry...

Sorry that im failed..

I still miss you, i still love you, i still thinking of you..

And cry again...

I'm sorry..

Bali...

Today actually is my most happiest day after we broken up...

But its also the day to pull down my HOPE....

Last night we play facebook game together (Swt)...

You wake me up this morning like everyday b4 broke up (Wonderful)..

And you tell me that Air Asia have cheap ticket to Bali (Thought of that you wanna bring me along)..

If you could say "Can you go with me??" I definitely answer "I DO..." but you're not saying that to me...

I love to go with you if you want to bring me along.. If its not then I wont go..

Escape...

Have been thought for few days already..

Either I continue study (Tourism course) at KL but make my parent sad and they wont support me due to changing field (but at least that i can still contact HIM)..

OR

I apply passport and go Singapore look for a job, haven't tell my parent yet but they will not be that angry as i change field (I'm not gonna to see or contact HIM anymore after I left)..

So I'm confusing 1st choice was my dream (to become a tour guide) but I need supportive..

Second choice are hashes but at least will make me forget HIM..

BLURS.....

Broke up again..

Haha, sound like so so funny like that..

Broken up again, same person same reason..

Same feeling, same unhappy, same sad..

but live still move on.. I've no time to think..