Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Not Happy

Im not happy im not happy...
I really not happy at the moment...
And I hate you you and you...
Wanted to cry but i wont cry...
HATE YOU!!!

Monday, December 28, 2009

NO IDEA!!!

Is there any1 can teach me what to do now??
My relationship is so messy and complicated now..
I need help, I need advices, I need someone teach me what to do..
I also need to know what actually i want..

I really dunnoe what to do now.. HELP ME!!!

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas without you

haiz, this year Christmas you are not around..
really not a happy Christmas for me this year...

remember last year Christmas what you've told me??
you told me that you will be with me every year's Christmas.. but this year im alone..

What i can do is just silence silence wishing you here..

And i told Santa, if i really deserver a Christmas wish, i wish he will come back to me as soon as possible.. im missing him so so much..

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

乱乱乱!!

没有你在我身边。。
我的生活真的乱七八糟。。
我根本不懂我自己在做什么。。
为什么要做我也不懂。。
就只要有东西做就可以了。。
不用管什么东西,有的做就做。。
只要不给自己有机会乱想,什么东西我都做。。
开心或不开心我也不懂。。
这就是我吗?? 我还是我吗??

对不起。。

我真的不可以和你讲我现在的情况。。
我不是故意要弄到你不开心。。
只是真的不可以讲。。

对不起,真的对不起。。
有的选我一定不会烦到你,但是我已经没有的选了。。

等timing对时我一定会和你讲发生什么事。。
但是不是现在。。。

对不起。。

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

累。。

我真的很累了。。

很累去挽救。。 很累去想念你。。 很累去爱你。。
很累去做工。。 很累去改变自己。。 很累很累了。。

很想休息,什么都不要想。。
我做得到吗??
真的做得到吗??

Monday, December 21, 2009

心痛。。

突然间,那种感觉又回来了。。
很想念你。。 很想和你在回一起。。
我还是很爱很爱你。。
我真的不想没有你。。
没有你在我的身边我就好像没有了灵魂。。
不会笑,只会哭。。
又不想再被人面前哭,所以就假装坚强。。
过了这个生活营,我发现我根本还没有放下你。。
还偷偷看你,偷偷哭,偷偷想你。。
可是你却不理会我。。
我很伤心,真的很伤心。。
没有了你我真的很伤心。。
求求你不要酱对我可以吗。。


Camp...

I really really regret to go this camp..
1st is knew he really doesnt that care of me anymore..
2nd is reminded me alot of previous thing..
3rd is i start missing him again..
4th is all the feeling is coming back again..
5th is i scare im doing stupid thing again..
6th is i cry again during the camp fire cuz see almost every1 is pairing except me lonely thr, before broken up i was planning to walk beach with him together, but now is become alone thr..

HAIZ!!! WILSON WAKE UP!! HE NOT UR BB ANYMORE!!! HE WONT COME BACK TO YOU ANYMORE!!! DONT THINK TOO MUCH!!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

没有感觉了。。

我开始对你的感觉越来越淡了。。
不想和你在纠缠下去。。
继续的走我要走的路。。
一个人慢慢走。。
反正我已经习惯一个人了。。

Monday, December 7, 2009

我爱你。。

我好想和你说我爱你。。
很想和你在一起。。
我一直都很想念你。。
真的很爱很爱你。。

You Sick..

BB oi, im still really standing beside you d..
you know what, recently im so happy that you find me workout together..
when the moment i knew you sick, im so worry you know..
im wanted to buy you some medicine, but i cant do that..
i cant let you know that you still in my heart..
but im really worry about you, i wish that i can stay beside you and take care of you..
BB oi how are you ler??

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Muscles Aching

After straight 4 days gym sessions, Im totally hurt my muscles..
Waist, Hips, Thigh, Calf and Arm all is aching..
Due to this I've to canceled my gym session today and rest at home..
SAD >.<

unHappy

Just now was so unhappy..
and drink alot of beer..
vomit, tired..

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Addicted

after attended FF's Line Dance Funk, im truly addicted onto it..
today 1st time attend therefore bit like duck moves.. doesnt know how to dance somemore..
hahaha
but i will add oil, tomoro will go for this class again..

Friday, December 4, 2009

OMG!!!

OMG OMG!!
why the feeling coming back again..
i dont want to think of him, i want to put him down..
why everything seem like coming back to me again..
please god, forgive me and give me a better path to go..
i dont want to struggling again..
PLEASE!!!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Fitness First @ Menara Axis 03/12/2009

Today went to fitness first workout...
and then i see you, but dunnoe why i really doesnt have the rejection feeling toward you anymore..
you attend you rpm class, me attend my body attack..
doesnt hv the hunger to stay beside you..

Anyway, hope you hv a happy future..

暗恋

我很想喜欢上你了。。
每次和你讲电话聊天,我都有种很开心的感觉。。
你不开心时,我也有种莫名奇妙的不开心。。
可是不懂你对我有没有感觉,也不想随随便便的去跟你告白。。
因为我懂你应该还放不下你之前的那个。。
就等吧,等你放下了我才去告诉你 我对你的感觉。。